The first thing I ever taught Magda was how to make a proper ham and cheese toast.
I remember it because of how she ate before that. We were young. I was eighteen, she was sixteen, and we were sitting on the kitchen floor of her mother’s flat, and Magda pulled a heel of bread out of the bag and rubbed a clove of garlic against it, hard, like she was sharpening something. Shook salt over it. Folded it once. Bit down. She did it without thinking about it at all, the way you don’t think about breathing.
“What is that,” I said. It wasn’t really a question.
“Bread.” She looked at me like I was slow. “What does it look like.”
“It looks like punishment.”
She laughed. A little salt fell off her lip. And it struck me, later, that it was the first time I’d seen her laugh without checking the room first — because she was always checking the room, always, I just didn’t have a name for it yet.
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